Mending Mystic

A Little More...
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Before I could speak, I remember feeling the force of life surging through nature all around me. I would run through the field of grass where my parents played slow-pitch softball, as I connected to this life force and felt a distinct sense of peace and safety. My grandma started taking my siblings and me to church with her when I was 6 years old. I remember seeing supernatural light spilling outside of the chapel doors. I knew that this was the same energy I had been connecting with outside in nature, and I wanted to keep going back to church to connect more. Admittedly, I didn't really like the people there. They were grumpy and snarly, as my sister and I ran around the sanctuary while my grandma played piano. I ignored their disapproving stares. That loving light presence? I wanted more of it. 

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I also experienced many spiritual happenings that I had no language for at the time. While visiting my other grandma, we stayed in the room my great grandmother had passed away in. One morning, my grandma was making a big, family breakfast. All my siblings scrambled up to eat! Still sleepy, I pulled the covers over my head to rest a bit more. I felt something land on my belly, and assumed my sister threw something at me to wake me up. I lifted the blanket and a teddy bear was sitting up perfectly on my belly. I looked around to see if anyone was in the room with me, but I was alone and the door was closed! Of course, I scrambled up and out of that room to join my family for breakfast! I continued to have spiritual experiences, and as I got older, they became more frequent. I had several dreams that turned out to be real and received messages from deceased loved ones through my dreams as well. I attended various churches growing up, all with the intent of knowing this loving, light energy (I knew as "God") more. When I was 19, I lived in my parent's country home briefly and spent most mornings on the back deck, drinking coffee and talking to God about any and everything on my mind. I was explaining to God how I wanted to experience him even more. I needed a bigger God that superseded my own understanding and limited mind. Soon, I began to notice a light appear in front of me, growing bigger and closer. The closer it got, the more warmth and unconditional love I felt. The sun was rising to the right of me and the sky was already full of its light source. Yet, I was seeing with my own physical eyes, an additional light source in front of me! I felt afraid at this realization. The moment I felt fear, the light shrunk back and softened. I've believed this light source to be some extension or manifestation of God, Divine Love. meeting me to the degree of love that I was open to. 

 

As years continued, so did my extraordinary experiences. For seven years, I felt hands pushing the back of my seat while I was driving. It terrified me. I didn't tell anyone for a while because I thought they would think I was crazy! I finally told a friend before he was moving to New York because if he thought I was crazy, he wouldn't be in this state anyway. As I told him, his eyes got wide with tears, and he said "I've been feeling it on the back of my seat as you've been describing it!" He prayed over my car and for angels to accompany me on my long drive home. I also had reoccurring dreams of an older style, white house, with a little girl with dark hair, who had a disfigured face. Again, I was terrified. My roommate asked about a girl with dark hair, sitting outside my bedroom door. Her boyfriend heard cups and dishes moving in the kitchen while everyone was asleep. An atheist co-worker came by to hang out and saw a girl walking through my house. He decided to wait for me on my front porch! A new roommate commented on being home alone and a door slamming shut. I also started hearing my name whispered. While working at a coffee shop drive thru, I heard my name whispered through the headset, in that familiar tone. I asked my co-worker if she said my name. She said it wasn't her. She actually thought it was me being weird and saying my own name! This strange phenomenon followed me everywhere. I hated driving alone because that presence usually returned. Eventually, I moved in with my sister and her 6 year old. While I was working, my sister was hit with a pillow mysteriously. Her daughter was hearing growling at night. I also started to hear the growling as it seemed to reverberate out of thin air. Everyone was afraid. It was time to call in some help! My mom's friend, who is an energy healer, came to our house to investigate. I also happened to meet a paranormal investigator while at work, and he and his wife came too. The energy healer saw a dark haired little girl spirit. She had a vision of this girl showing her a white house she lived in. Everything she described was what I had been seeing in my dreams! She showed the healer how she had been a bastard child, so her grandfather hid her and abused her. She died of a fatal blow to her face. This explained to me why I had seen her with a disfigured face. The healer informed me that I had clairvoyant abilities. The paranormal investigator also captured sounds of footsteps walking on my stairs, and in an attempt to capture more audio, he told the spirit "this is your last chance." I saw the girl walk up to his recorder, and at that moment, you can hear her say "heeelp.". It was in that same tone I had been hearing my name whispered. The healer encouraged me to help this spirit cross over into the light. At that moment, the whole room filled with inescapable sorrow. A sorrow so deep, you could feel its weight in your gut. Everyone was crying. I felt tiny hands on my back. I heard a plea to stay. The healer explained to me that she was afraid of crossing over because she didn't know if her grandfather would be there, and she didn't want to leave me because she felt safe with me. I prayed for angels to come and help her cross over. I explained to her that everything on the other side is pure love and she didn't have to be afraid of abuse anymore. I told her she could visit me any time! She crossed over. The pushing on my seat stopped. However, these extraordinary experiences did not. 

 

From that point on, I learned all that I could about my abilities. Studying books, online courses, mentoring with other healers, and lots of practice healing, I was turning over every stone, as long as it was love centered. I learned how I could use my abilities for perceiving the spirit and energy world to help others, like how I had been helped. Whether it be spirits, emotional turmoil, past life trauma, physical ailments, I was learning how everything was coming together holistically and affecting us. I learned how I can help move this energy from the body, home, or physical objects, to restore balance, harmony and peace. I don't claim to "fix" things, though I can bring in layers of healing through each session to support others. I also studied psychology at Stephens College in their Marriage and Family Therapy program. I have always had a passion for helping others, especially children. I worked in the mental health field for 5 years, working with adults and children, teaching coping skills. While I loved watching these people grow and overcome their struggles, I also felt pulled to help more directly as a spiritual guide and energy healer. I decided to withdraw from college, as this kind of work did not fit the state licensure requirements! I wanted to have the freedom to have my own practice that allowed me to work in this unique way of helping others. While I didn't finish my psychology degree, and don't have impressive accreditations, I am blessed to offer these alternative, healing, support services to whoever may be in need!

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